Seeing Yom Ha’atzmaut Through New Eyes

by Natalie Perach

Every year on Yom Ha’atzmaut I celebrate Israel’s independence because I am Israeli. I celebrate because I am Jewish. I celebrate because I am the granddaughter of Zionist pioneers who made the land of Israel a reality. I celebrate to honor my grandmother who at the age of 16 left her family and life in Germany and moved to build the land that would soon be known as Israel. I celebrate because I am the daughter of an Israeli military and intellectual machine who for six long years risked his life to defend the livelihood of his people as a Captain and Paratrooper Commander in the Israeli army. I celebrate on behalf of my culture and my family’s history. And this year I celebrate in light of my own experiences.

This Yom Ha’atzmaut I celebrate the effervescence of Jewish life with a new perspective after experiencing the highest forms of glory for the Jewish nation while visiting Israel and reawakening the darkest moment in our history in Poland. The opportunity to experience the most celebrated and the most mournful points of Jewish history has helped me understand why my grandparents and father devoted so much of their lives to the nation of Israel. It has clarified why I devote so much of my life to Israel.

While in Israel with REALITY Israel Experience I walked in the footsteps of my forefathers, I savored the rich dates and olives the land bore, I felt the warmth of the Kotel and the throbbing spirit of the millions of Jews who had stood there before me. Despite our mournful history, the pulse of Jewish life and freedom is loud and clear in Eretz Yisrael.

Five months after celebrating the vibrancy of the Jewish people in Israel, I visited Poland, which exposed the vilest side of humanity.

“You’re a sick man,” a member of the Poland trip said to Tzvi, our England born, Israel-residing tour guide, half jokingly, half trying to break the nervous energy that grasped our group. “Scheduling a trip into Treblinka at eleven thirty at night on New Year’s Eve. You’re a sick man.”

Rabbi Lynn (the leader of our trip), passing nearby, overhead the remark. “Welcome to hell,” he commented. Hell it was. And hell it is. Thirty four of us walked slowly into the Treblinka Death Camp, winding through its stone path of terror, each grasping a single lit red candle in the frigid December air. Eight hundred seventy thousand murders in 10 months. Eighty seven thousand per month. Or 3,000 per day. They were perpetrated by a mere 32 SS officers – amounting to roughly 30,000 murders each.

As we sang the haunting Jewish anthem “yizkerem,” in memory of our slaughtered family, the clock struck midnight lighting up the sky with the loud, booming sounds of cheap fireworks set off in the Polish countryside. And as we stood at a large slab of stone, a memorial to the entrance of Treblinka, our communal voice began to crescendo with emotion, and World War II came to life around us. The firework explosions, a literal carbon copy of the gunshot sounds which traveled for miles through the surrounding forests. And the fireworks themselves, lighting up the sky for more than half an hour vaulted us back to the Allied bombing raids of 1943 in this small Polish village.

We spent nearly two hours within the Treblinka camp. And that was just the beginning. No writer, no matter how poetic, no matter how accomplished, or trained, or poised could ever define what we felt in those few hours as we celebrated life in the lowest depths of hell. We listened to our trusted tour guide Tzvi recount stories from the mere 70 survivors of Treblinka. Seventy. Out of nearly a million. We learned about Ivan the Terrible who had such contempt for crying Jewish babies that he would snatch them out of their mothers’ arms, rip them in half with his bare hands and then give them back to their wailing mothers before ushering them into the gas chamber. When in a more charitable mood, he showed mercy – grabbing small children by their feet and swinging their heads into a brick wall – at least leaving them in a single piece for their parents.

We listened to the deeply moving words of one of the chosen seventy, a barber in the camp whose job it was to shave the victim’s heads before they would enter the gas chamber. A job that was extraordinary painful, made impossibly worse when his own wife walked into the room and sat down on the bench in front of him. In his own words, he recounted how he showed affection. He cut her hair more tenderly, told her he loved her, and that if she stayed to the right side of the showers, she would survive. No matter that he knew she would die. But at least he allowed her to visit death properly.

These were just a few of the stories. We learned three, maybe four. But in reality, there are nearly a million. And no number of these trips, no number of memorials, no amount of reparations can ever do justice to their memory. I’m not alone in that sentiment. While certain Holocaust memorials believe that the ideal memory is in each individual name, the memorializers at Treblinka took a different approach. The place was leveled. It is now just an empty field of rocks. But those rocks, many of which are more boulders than rocks, each carry a single inscription: the name of a shtetl entirely annihilated or nearly destroyed within Treblinka’s walls. And, most chillingly, there are hundreds of those memorial stones.

Several from our group found the names of the shtetls where their respective families had once lived. In some cases, their family member was the lone survivor from an entire town. In a true display of the absolute power of technology, Rabbi Lynn phoned his cousin Avram – an elderly man who lives in Miami, and speaks broken English, while maintaining fluent Yiddish – in front of the shtetl stone representing his now incinerated former home. And as Rabbi Lynn spoke to him in old world Yiddish, we were transported back to 1942, we felt the pulse of the camp, and we felt the sorrow in the painful Yiddish words.

And as we stood there shivering, despite heavy overcoats from the likes of North Face, Marmot and Arcteryx an 80-year-old man in his Miami apartment choked through a painful rendition of the mourners Kaddish through a Blackberry speakerphone. His Aramaic words, so powerful, yet so pained, became slurred as he choked back tears, so much so that we barely knew when to respond “Amen.” And just when we thought it was over, this man we’ve never met, whose voice was projected from 6,000 miles away, began reciting the list of his family members remembered in his Kaddish prayer. And if any in our group had held back tears to that point, they couldn’t any longer. Nearly a dozen names, wrapped in the affectionate wailing of Moishe-le and Chana-le, much as our own grandparents used to wrap us in their arms and add the Yiddishe suffix to our own first names. Avram was the only survivor from his entire family, and a full 70 years later, the passion and affection was no less evident in his voice.

After Avram’s Kaddish, we placed our candles on his shtetl’s boulder, completing our step back in time into the Treblinka Death Camp. Then, in what was a recurring image of our trip, we walked out of Treblinka, an opportunity to exit shared with only 70 souls in the history of the camp. Seething anger and disgust boiled inside my body as the truths of the Holocaust unfolded, but my pride towards the Jewish nation grew just as rapidly. Despite attempts at annihilating our people, we remain and we thrive. That is why I celebrate Yom Ha’atzmaut – to remember the sorrow and celebrate the beauty of our Jewish history.

Natalie Perach is an alumna of the 2011 REALITY Israel Experience, a program that takes Teach for America corps members on a free journey across Israel to help them build their understanding of their own unique leadership, reflect on the role of their identity on their work, recharge their conviction about justice and opportunity, and consider where they want to make their long-term impact in the Teach For America movement. In December, Natalie used a Make It Happen Project micro grant for REALITY Israel alumni to travel to Poland and Budapest on a trip sponsored by the Jewish Resource Center at the University of Michigan. Ezra Galston contributed to the creation of this reflection.