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A Place Where Our Absence Is Noticed

October 29, 2018 By eJP

By Cheryl Moore

On a lazy Saturday morning, as I sat in my kitchen reading, a notification made me glance at my lap-top. It was a post on our Squirrel Hill neighborhood group page, asking if anyone knew what all the sirens were about. I too heard the sirens. Moments later, a friend in Israel called. He interrupted my greeting to exclaim, “Ugh! Thank God! It is so good to hear your voice!! Is everyone there safe?” While asking him what he was talking about, I turned on CNN. There it was. Breaking news. Red banner. An active shooter at Tree of Life synagogue, a few short blocks from my home, and part of my enclave of more than half a century of Jewish life. Dread filled me. It was Shabbat. Three congregations meet at Tree of Life. Shaking and pacing, I followed the soon to arrive directive to shelter in place, and prayed that it would turn out to be “nothing.”

It wasn’t nothing. It was everything. It was deadly. It was what seasoned law enforcement officers, who had been on the site of plane crashes, called the most horrific crime scene they had ever seen. Though I am not a member of any of the congregations that call TOL home, I have been there countless times to celebrate the life cycle events of my friends and relatives, and the friends of my children. I walk by the building daily, and have been to numerous meetings and community events there. In the Pittsburgh Jewish community, specifically in Squirrel Hill, each cell has walls that are thin and permeable, and is characterized not by distinctness, but by its role in the entire organism that is our community.

As the day wore on, and the wait to learn the names of the dead and injured became barely tolerable, I allowed myself to think of who must have been at services that morning. Cecil, of course. Cecil, six years older than me, developmentally disabled, larger than life, was an integral part of my mental image of Tree of Life. He was there when I was a kid and he was there now. Cecil arranging tallitot in the foyer, walking up and down the aisles, lumbering across the rows of seats in the sanctuary, to greet someone, or hand someone a book. Cecil, waiting for his bus in front of the shul, bellowing a “hello” to me as I walked by with my dogs, who he would also greet and tentatively pet, before telling me that he was afraid of them. Cecil and his brother, David, were indeed killed, murdered in what was to them a home, in what was a place where they were important and appreciated, where they knew everyone and where their absence would be noticed. Cecil and David, murdered because they were in the wrong place at the wrong time, at a synagogue on Shabbat, though it was the rightest place they had ever known. I pray that they had no time to be afraid or confused, or to understand the hate, in the place that had always provided them assurance and love.

To me, what happened to Cecil tragically represents what happened to our community on October 27, 2018. Squirrel Hill is home. It is our little bubble of sights, sounds, tastes, smells, of memories, habits, rituals, comfort. The routes we always take. The stops we always make. The people we always greet. The way it all fits together. Somehow, our lives became the object of murderous rage and hate. We were just doing what we do on a rainy fall Shabbat and were suddenly felled by a lunatic on a mission to destroy what he saw as an evil force.

What happened here is about hate. It is about something new and something old and tenacious. It is about the eleven innocent souls who were murdered as they gathered to worship and express gratitude for living to celebrate another Shabbat of peace. Only they didn’t. It is about the wounded, some critically. It is about the breath-taking bravery of first-responders, whose selflessness fills me with awe and the uncomfortable concern that I might not be as noble.

Let us not allow hate, demonization, and desensitization to the humanity in all of us to create distance and barriers between us. Let’s stand as a united community, as a worldwide Squirrel Hill. We are all created in God’s image and, like Cecil, take pleasure and comfort in connection, feeling needed, important and loved, and having a place to be. May God console you among the other mourners of Zion and Jerusalem.

Cheryl Moore, B.A., M.B.A., B.S.N. is a Women’s Health nurse, living in Pittsburgh, PA.

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  1. Merav says

    October 29, 2018 at 12:15 pm

    Thank you for your words of wisdom. My heart is with you all.
    Merav. Israel

  2. Sherri says

    October 29, 2018 at 12:53 pm

    Beautifully written and sad beyond words. ?

  3. John Pritchard says

    October 29, 2018 at 2:07 pm

    Your thoughts transcend the evil to what’s most valued in our daily live’s- to have a sense of community, support and love. Prayers

  4. PaulaFingeret Rulin says

    October 29, 2018 at 2:42 pm

    Oh Cheryl
    Thank you for being able to put such beautiful and consoling thoughts to paper. It’s so difficult to wrap ones head around this horrific event. Our hearts and neighborhood are broken. This makes it softer to digest

  5. Pamela Kaufman Wagoner says

    October 29, 2018 at 3:42 pm

    Thank you. Your beautiful words capture what many of us cannot articulate. May their memory be blessing

  6. Paul F Resnick says

    October 29, 2018 at 4:05 pm

    Cheryl,

    I do not know you but thank you for making this terrible story. I am not numb after reading your thoughtful words.

    Paul

  7. Fredric Price says

    October 29, 2018 at 5:06 pm

    Well said

  8. Debbie Kimbrough says

    October 29, 2018 at 7:23 pm

    I am so saddened by this unnecessary tragic event & the hate filling our nation.

  9. Ann Bihary says

    October 29, 2018 at 10:39 pm

    Beautifully written. Pittsburgh and all its communities have my familiy’s home for 5 generations. It hurts my very soul that this should happen here. How could such a thing happen in Mr Roger’s Neighborhood? We must hold onto each other and love one another remembering that we are one.

  10. Aliza Yaffe says

    October 30, 2018 at 6:30 am

    I can not stop crying. Thank you for writing these
    Aliza Yaffe

  11. Karina says

    October 30, 2018 at 6:03 pm

    What a meaningful way to honor someone’s memory and let others get to know a soul that is lost. A heartwarming tribute during a tragic time.

  12. Heidi Hoffman Bros says

    November 1, 2018 at 12:51 am

    Beautifully written Cheryl! I feel the heartbreak as strong here in Minnesota as I did when I was visiting Pittsburgh on that dreadful day

  13. Len says

    November 1, 2018 at 1:20 am

    Thank you Cheryl for giving us a call to action to to keep living our lives and not let hate defeat us.
    Len

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